O༙v༙e༙r༙c༙o༙m༙i༙n༙g༙ m༙y༙ s༙t༙o༙r༙y༙ o༙f༙ s༙t༙a༙m༙m༙e༙r༙i༙n༙g༙ w༙i༙t༙h༙ f༙i༙v༙e༙ e༙a༙s༙y༙ f༙r༙e༙e༙ s༙t༙e༙p༙s༙

I have been working on an empty scale since my life, as a little girl, I lived in tragedies with people, and even family, nobody seems to even listen to me’ I have stayed alone and even suffered so many criticism from people, I can vividly remember in our Sunday school classes more often i as not giving task, not because I am unable to deliver accordingly, but because I was a stammer. Even when I was tender it still looks so frustrating for me, knowing fully well that nobody, not even family was ready to see it’s becoming simplified, rather when I speak I was only mimicked baldly, that made me stretch having inferiority complex around people even with my age group, these kept on manifesting as long as it’s lasts

In schools( secondary level)times for debate or school function that requires speaking was only cut off with the fees of stammering 🥴, so that I don’t get embarrassed ‘I just stayed in a particular shell 🐚 of stammering for long, I had bad and ugly situations when even in thr classroom, when questions are asked I can’t answer I can’t even ask questions too. They only friend I could talk with, to some stage changed and never wanted to talk with me . I felt she was tired of my inability to communicate straight without stammering, it became more frustrating as things in our school became more engaging. But all along I was only abandoned with the motives, telling me, they needed few persons.

In all these even when I wanted to talk talk they will ask someone they feel might translate me well to them ‘ahhhh ! I was such a mess then.

In every sense, I felt the ground should open so I got swallowed by it. Nothing was getting better comprehensively, otherwise’ not even parent or guardian cares to help me out in any way of the task to becoming better, no recommendations of any therapist or personal one- one talk with them

. I had encounter with so many people who could helo me to get to some points in life. But in the name of stammering, I always loose every opportunity, every-time I cried I become more diminished, inferiority complex was my friend that gave me reason to feel fear rather than courage,

If only I was not born, that was only what keeps ringing in my heart, I struggled severely to the points I myself hate myself, I refuse to keep any friend or come in contact with people.

Summoned some piece of courage to attend camps and sermon along, but I just feel reserved to myself, not talking to anyone I go back with my same self, I was my one failure, because I only feel guilty and hated myself the more

Each day that goes by I can count the amount of bad words I received from people, I couldn’t even agree with my self at some point again, even when it feels right but I say to my self’ I’m wrong 😑

I was my biggest fear doing myself

I came in contact with:

SELF REALIZATION (m༙y༙ d༙e༙l༙i༙v༙e༙r༙a༙n༙c༙e༙)

I accepted the facts that I do that which nobody has or even if some had the issue was few, that makes me unique

• I believed more in my self
• I wrote down things I would need to compliment my uniqueness
• I become I unconscious of making attempts to stammer, became confident and spoke on large audience
• I met with therapist, because it gradually helps you analyze my breathing pattern techniques
• I learnt calmness( meditation 🧘‍♀️ yogi and do exercise

If you are make up your mind to do anything you can achieve it. The moment o realize that am unique that nobody can stammer that way, I had a feel good spirit and made more moves to do better and face my fears.

We are all unique. Let nobody tell you less of that. Let’s ma fair with ourselves